Saturday, June 05, 2004 @6/05/2004 05:56:00 PM
read smth veri interestin loh
was at the library can u believe it
lolx
when i heard wat he say i was kinda shocked ba
never expect his actions to b so fast
the night i lost you
someone pointed me towards
the five stages of grief
go that way, they said,
it's easy like learin to climb
stairs after amputation
and so i climbed
denial was first
i sat down at breakfast
carefully sttin the table
for two.i passed u the toast
you sat there.i passed
you the paper-you hid
behind it
anger seemed more familiar
i burned the toast,snatched
the paper and read the headlines myself
but they mentioned your departure
and so i moved on to
baragaining. what would i exchange
for you?the silence
after storms?my typoing fingers?
before i could decide, depression
came puffin up, a poor relation
its suitcase tied together
with string. in the suitcase
were bangages for the eyes
and bottlesof sleep.i slid
all the way down the stairs
feeling nth
and all the time hope
flashed on and off
in defective neon
hope was a signpost pointin
straight in the air
hope was my uncle middle name
he dies of it
after a year im still climbing
through my feet slip
on your stone face
the treeline
has long since disappeared
green is a colour
i hav forgetten
a d now i c what i m climbing
towards:acceptance
written in capital letters,
a special hearlines
acceptance
its name in lights
i struggle on
wavin n shouting
below my whole life spreads its turf
all the landscapes ive never known
or dreamed of. below
a fish jumps;the pulse
in ur neck
acceptance.i finally
reach it
but sumthing i swrong
grief is a circular staircase
i have lost you