Sunday, February 29, 2004 @2/29/2004 01:58:00 PM
i have waited long enough..have tried stayin by the pone waitin for it to ring..but it didnt..i have waited four long months..i believe in fate..cuz it brought me n him together..it also brought me n him apart..i make a call to him yesterday..in the call he did not ask me to stay he did not ask me to leave..i finally decided to leave him..when i reached home i cried..nobody was there to console me..after i stepped into my room..it rained veri heavily..it was as if the weather suits my mood..it rained the whole night n i cried the whole night too..i could not sleep i wanted to take sleepin pills n drink but i tink it;s time for me to face up to reality all these things can onli help me forget at that moment onli..after that all the sad things will come back..so there no point in doin all those things...now also in lan...later meetin weihao and sylvia..go study..how i wish b4 i grad i can stand in front of him wiv a smile in my face treatin him as a fren..by the time i would not cry after tinkin of him..that will be a long distant dream..gtg play gb le..c ya